he said rubies

I would have said mango pits, or dry leaves, or fondue
but rubies,
moonstone,
tourmaline,

that's nice too.

HEARTS BEING ---- generally multifaceted I've been told. 

worshiping rocks

Oh yeah ~ yeah this is the ONE.

Its gotta be.

I mean look at the incredible baLance.

Large and solid

Beautiful contours.

Light saturating surface

yet so much character,

dark undercurrents - dusty texture

Not Going Anywhere, that's for sure.

yeah, this could totally work.

beast

i'm a beast.

you heard that right.

can't be helped.

call me de/fiance for short

or

b. east

whichever.

things that matter

Fingertips barely brushing strands of hair

and

Vibrant whispers
Behind ears
Back of neck
Down shoulders
Ribs
Feathery sensations
Currents
Spirit weaving
Interlacing
Body curls swirls swishes
Mouth parts
Eyes glaze

Twiddling with fingertips

Disturbance of matter

weeds

beautiful to bugs

becoming on hillsides

but strangling front yard flowers

weed yanking = therapy

No Charge

unannounced stragglers

looking for space to root

are a catalyst for healthy mind

and stronger body

*

bonus:

muddy hands

rethinking Birthdays

click pic to grow ~

Walk backwards.

go on.

go back.

and plant your path with candles

for years

days

every breath that returns you.

to the color of your mother's laughter when the moon blessed her belly

let the light of your birth

illumine

the

steps of your life.

going back.

a. creative. mind.

Yogi Tea donation
tag from tea bag
might look innocent
but it's dang stubborn
I can't lose it
I lose tons of things all the time
big things
obvious things
but not tags from tea bags
tags from tea bags, and owl feathers
those two things
I cannot lose

give...

for you
from me
with love
for me
for you
and love
because
it longs
longs too
short
to reach
reaches
too long
for.
get.
to love
the love
from me.
for me
for you

Magnificence*

don’t object to me, before you have tasted me

don’t wash away the willows, with the spring

BOW

your own magnificence will understand

Dearly Beloved

Brilliant how the right book at the right time
can get into our blood – shape who-we-are.
Introducing a few of my little shape-shifters...
(in order of appearance - CLiCK to see better)

Kinship with all Life – J.Allen Boone
Do you have empathy with animals, would you like to communicate with them? Written in 1954, this book is easy to read, wise, informative and astonishing!

The I Ching – Brian Brown Walker
A little book of ancient Chinese magic! Play with pennies and let the universe speak to you through this easy to use oracle. Plus it looks nice on the desk.

Education of Little Tree – Forest Carter
Cry-Cry-Cry! This gem tore my heart open. It comes with a disclaimer: Apparently the author was not who he claimed to be and wrote this “true story” under an alias nothing close to who he really was. But I was SO moved by this (actually not-so-true) story, that I decided to forgive him, I do feel he redeemed himself by opening a tenderness in me.

Eat, Pray, Love – Elizabeth Gilbert
Well, I assume everyone has heard of this book by now. If you don’t know what it is…go ask Oprah.

Joan of Arc – Mark Twain
OKAY this was a SURPRISE!!! I reclaimed it from a give-away box many years ago. Mark Twain is a genius of a writer! (I know, duh). He really did write this version of Joan of Arc – the best available - I’m positive. He spent 12 years researching this baby, his best-loved work (by him and me). Every page is a morsel. Great for Men and Women and Coming-of-Agers. Get it!

A Joseph Campbell Companion – Joseph Campbell
This is a compilation of some of the best and juiciest of JOE’s work. I love to flip this book open and start reading from anywhere.

Medicine Cards – Sams & Carson
I’m not gonna say that these are the best “Tarot” style cards in the world, because they’re probably not. I do believe in animal medicine and used these cards heaps in my twenties. Nice illustrations and simple explanations. If you are down with nature’s wisdom or were like, a Native American in your past life or something - check these out.

Crow with No Mouth – Ikkyu
Oh god-bless me! Stumbled across this little shocker recently. I can only say a few things about it: I want to wear it under my shirt. I have tried wiping it on my arms to see if the words will fall off. I carry it in the car for good luck. BUT – Enter at your own risk.

Helen Keller – Wendy Watson
Ya’ll know the story. Opened-my-eyes…ahem, so to speak. Read it back to back when I was in third grade. Love the heart and soul of this woman. The strength. Read or give to any child 7 on up.

Island of the Blue Dolphins – Scott O’Dell
Another one I scoured back-to-back-to-back in third/fourth grade. (And I did NOT like to read when I was a kid, so that should tell ya something). Based on a true story of a young Native American girl who gets stranded on an island for 18 years with a pack of wild dogs.

Sunburst Farm Family Cookbook – Sunburst Farm
Just an old hippie cookbook put together by some 1970’s hippies who lived in a commune in California. It’s probably been out of print for years - and most of the recipes are incorrect so you always have to adjust measurements, but I lived out of it in early motherhood. Relished it actually.

Summerhill – A.S. Neill
This dude is RADICAL, (way ahead of his time) I like them like that. After being tormented by adults as a child – he opened his own super FAR OUT boarding school for troubled kids of all ages. This is not for everyone and I certainly have not applied all of his principals in my own child rearing, but I will say, it altered my perspective on how things can be done and gave me confidence in parenting and great respect for the little beings among us.

Le Petite Prince – Antoine de Saint Exupéry
No I didn’t read it in French – but I think it sounds better so I’m faking it. I am also faking it that I can ever remember what this story is about. I do remember wisdom woven between words and fanciful images that get stuck under skin. Actually I think I “stuck” this book in the mix, because I thought I was supposed to, but I can’t guarantee it has actually changed my life.



Women Who Run With the Wolves
-Clarissa Pinkola Estés, Ph.D.
THIS BOOK HAS FOR SURE ALTERED MY LIFE – SHAPED ME. EVERY WOMAN, GO BUY THIS BOOK! IT IS MY HONEST TO GOODNESS BIBLE AND HAS HELPED ME UNDERSTAND THE DEEP FOREST OF HUMAN NATURE. THE WORDS MELT AROUND YOU. YOU WILL BE LOST – AND THEN FOUND.

Animal-Speak – Ted Andrews
I want to marry symbolism. Teddy breaks it down. Dissecting animal behavior, mythology and using historical references, he offers the reader a way to relate to oneself through creatures we may encounter in life or in dreams. Shake hands with “you” by attuning to the ones who have walked before.

Mutant Message – Marlo Morgan
True story I read when I was 18. I don’t remember the details, but I remember CRYING and LAUGHING. This is a fascinating account of an American woman who goes to live with aboriginals down under and learns old secrets, wisdom and TRUST.

The Mists of Avalon – Marion Zimmer Bradley
Really FAT Book. It will consume your life – but let it. If you have any interest in Ancient Mystery Schools, Priestesses, Wizards, King Arthur, Faeries, Herbs, Rituals, Love Stories, or Unseen Powers…indulge. Not quite Harry Potter for grown ups, but it’s a little bit Harry Potter for grown ups. Sexier though.

A Woman’s Worth – Marianne Williamson
Good quickie fix. EMPOWERMENT style. Easy-to-read. Nice-to-look-at. Clear – straight-to-the-point bathtub book.

Play of Consciousness – Swami Muktananda
This is the true story of enlightenment - a Yogi’s journey. I have never read this book cover-to-cover, but I know it by heart. More than magical…a living entity, an umbilical cord to the eye of the universe. But don’t be surprised if it sits on your bookshelf for many years, only to one day pop off the shelf and hit you on the head. Just saying…


Deep in Thought.less.ness.

doubt

KNOCK KNOCK

Intruder.

Thinking Thoughts. Think Think. Doubt.

I mean…

D O U B T

trouble

You are yucky!

I want to yell out - YOU with my most ANGRY voice!

And fall to tears and hold my knees and leave snot on the rug.

I want to slam things like doors and break stuff that I really like and push chairs horizontal

because it makes a loud sound.

I want to change stuff.

mostly intruders.

D O U B T - spelled in stupid font.

out.

I love your heart

Nervous Laughter

Because I don’t know why

Because you are taller than me?

Because your smile is crooked, but your eyes are bright?

Nerves

I will probably hurt your feelings

Because I don’t know what else to say

And I don’t know what you want me to say

And I want to give you something

Because you deserve something

But I don’t know what

Or if I have it

That thing

That

One

Thing

That people give each other

And

you are better at talking..

With words

That fall out smooth

Like

Butterscotch

And

I am better at writing..

In secret journals

Stored in dark rooms

Like

A potato

of consciousness.

Click on ME

mango

my heart looks like a mango

but my toenails are dirty

and that’s why my heart looks like a mango

SpiLL

Click Pic to READ

tender.

Sweep your love my way…

I’ll recycle the crumbs.

Drop my hat at your feet.

Catch your exhale.

please.

Allow me to trace your silhouette with my only pencil.

So I might never forget.

Your fragrance.

Glance.

Fingertips.

The smirk of you.

May I never forget the smirk of you.